A week ago I handed in my written notice of resignation because ongoing problems at work made me doubt my own performance and I was about to break under the sheer weight of anger and disappointment I had gathered on my shoulders. I just couldn't bear another disapproval after working to the best of my abilities, so I thought I had to leave ... which I deeply regret now.
It wasn't until after I handed in my notice that I realized how attached I really am to the toy store, yet I am certain that I couldn't carry on the way things are - problems would just start all over again. I started to look for other jobs and applied at a few places but had no luck so far. My colleagues were first puzzled as to why I resigned and not sure how to respond, nobody would speak to me for a few days until recently when I started to ask them for advice.
Pretty much everyone told me to think it over and speak to the store manager ASAP to see if there was a chance to withdraw my resignation. But would that be a good idea? Leaving is a really bold step to do and surely I can't just walk in and beg for being taken back on. I'd look like an attention hungry idiot if I did that. On the other hand it was probably a bad idea to leave before I had a new place to go to .. it's just that any words of disapproval felt like a dozen arrows hitting me at the same time, for so long I've tried to improve my performance and try to "impress", yet all I get is a "you can do better" attitude which really hurt me in the end ...
I never wanted to leave the toy store, I just felt very helpless and misunderstood at the time
I may be going to try and talk to my manager tomorrow and see what happens. I have little faith tho that I can shake things around after all this ... sigh
"SunSpire"
